when in doubt, sound it out.

You have to give him some type of credit.
HIGH 5 BRO!

ANTE UP!

where the hell was I when this was made?
HILARIOUSSSSSS!

Dad

So today is/was my dad's birthday.
Quite awesome.
He told me that he was proud of me today, and I actually got choked up..

Hearing that from my dad out of all people, I don't know, makes me feel some type of way.
Like, I'm actually doing something right..
We had a good talk, about family, and the past, present, future, and blah blah blah. Long story short, he told me that I have to do what makes me happy, and that he's happy with the person I'm growing up to be.
It's funny, because you can see that he's worried about me.. so much so he told me that I was too pale to have bags under my eyes. HILARIOUS!

what can i say?
my dad and i never had the best relationship until recently. well that's kind of a lie, because when I was younger, my dad and i were always two peas in a pod. Sigh. Little by little, he's accepting me for who I am, and that's all I can really ask for. I may not end up doing the profession he wants, or end up studying what he would like, but he's kind of understanding that's just the way it's going to be.

Today my dad turned 58. and I think he looks very distinguished with him gray hair.
i love my dad.

The Perks of Being a Wallflower

"You see things. You keep quiet about them. And you understand."

I've read this book, about a total of 5 times, since the 6th grade. And every time I finish it, I'm just a little bit sad, because I feel like I read it too quickly, but at the same time, I feel sort of complete, since I got something different out of the book. It happens every time, guaranteed.

This book is about this kid named Charlie, starting out in his first year of high school. He starts out with no friends and is somewhat of a loner. Although, not long into the school year he develops friendships with a few older students that go to his school, as well as his English teacher, Bill. Bill continuously is giving Charlie books to read outside of school, because Bill knows that Charlie is very intelligent and uses his mind in an extraordinary way. Charlie is not just like anyone. He is different and his friends notice it as well. Charlie picks up on things around him and notices small things that most wouldn't think twice about; he keeps quiet to himself about these things he picks up on; and he understands them and is able to grasp them in his mind, thus making him like a "wallflower". Charlie simply is trying to understand the complex world around him and make sense of things.

This book is written in the form of a journal with letters written by Charlie to "someone" who he says should remain unknown, making it appear as though he is writing to a real person. I really like it this way, because it gives the book a unique feel and puts the perspective of the story in a whole different light. Therefore, the whole story is told through Charlies eyes, and with him being a "wallflower" just makes the story that much better. Charlie is a great character, I think anyone could read this book and relate to Charlie's different high school experiences and how he feels about the world around him.

There really wasn't much I didn't like about this book. I enjoyed reading it front to end. The ending though, does get me a little peeved, because it does just kind of seem to END, and a lot of questions are left to be answered and assumed by the reader. The epilogue ties things together and puts some of the missing pieces of the puzzle together, but like i said, the ending is fairly abrupt. I feel that the ending made the book what it is, and really worked well with the story.

Sigh.
In a way, I kind of love Charlie.
His way of thinking, and his innocence,
just makes me feel some type of way.

Killer of Giants

NY photographer Angela Boatwright is inspired by old-skool record covers and has a lengthy client list that includes everyone from Dazed and Confused to Vibe magazine. She also curates some amazing art shows all across the planet and, uhm, I really dig her stuff. Sorry for the lack of articulate journalism, but pictures speak louder than words.

check her website: http://www.angelaboatwright.com/

decisions.

so, will i ever make a decision about what i want to do with the rest of my life?
knowing me, most likely not. I refuse to say it's because I have no idea. I have a very good idea, but it's because I want to do so much, in so little time. Besides, it's the rest of MY life.. like times change, as do people, so how can one person know what they want to do for the REST of their life..

However, I can make a decision what I want to do right now..

My thing is this.. Why should I, even try to fool myself into thinking that I can go to school for years and study subjects that I have little to no interest in? Yeah, I'm quite intelligent, and I do think outside the box. I can process things rather quickly. Figure out equations, and resolve problems as a pass time, but why do it to myself?
I wanted to go to art school, since I realized what imagination was.
AND yes! i do know that my father is probably, shit more than likely, going to throw a fit, and my mother disapproves. But what does that mean for me? Happiness is not once size fits all, so why must I conform to what others want?
There's a point in every person's life, where they go F IT!, and they have to do what's best for them, or what they feel is best for that moment.
Right now, I think going away to my dream school, doing what I WANT, is what's best for me.

Pharmacy !? HA! seriously though, how can you know me, and then still suggest for me to go into a medical field. what are you, HIGH?! Yeah, it's in demand, but I don't want a JOB, I want a career, something that I can wake up every day, and go "YES!, I get to go to work today." Granted, I know it's not always going to be like that, but should I not at least a couple of days be? And for me, it's never been about the money, I've never been that type of person.. I appreciate the concern though, for my well being as I become more independent, but I just need to do for self, not for the approval of others.

Funny how, with indecision comes a decision hidden somewhere.

Now, to fork up that tuition, matter of fact not even..
i just need them (the 'rents) to trust me on this one.

MONSTER(s)

"let me stop, before i create a monster."

HE is hilarious, just because he knows me so well. Him being my best friend is absolute perfection. It's funny how we have so many different interests, yet so much in common. Together, we make a bunch of "monsters".
His knowledge, plus my own, is something people are not generally used to.. so I can see how the term monster can be implied.
Honestly, I'm not quite used to it, and I've known him for so many yrs now. I love the fact that we can teach each other new things every time we talk. It's always about something different.
Being that I don't get that kind of conversation from people these days, it's a relief.
It's like, I feel myself getting excited about things he's excited about more & more . I don't know if it's because he's so convincing about everything or it's the fact that he knows me so well that he knows that i could have a real interest in what he's teaching me. And it's always visa versa. Same thing applies for him.
He & I together, are the perfect combination.. we're always masterminding. Two heads are better than one, ya know? I can see why people would think of it as an abnormality. You just don't see people like us anymore.

Sigh.

I love.

RAWR!

birds. what the flying ...

this freaks me out in the worst way. i can't even begin to tell you, what the hell runs through my mind when I think of Alfred Hitchcock's film "The Birds". it's like when he was making the movie, he thought "hm, i think it's time to start a new phobia!" Seeing a bunch of school children being chased by killer birds just does not sit well with me. Watching this movie has been a traumatic experience.

I mean, yeah sure, the barbie was made to celebrate the 45th anniversary, but seriously.. Did you really need to make a barbie based on this movie? Out of all things.
Why not make a black barbie for Michelle Obama ?

I nearly passed out when I came across this interesting collectible. the barbie is dressed exactly like the character played by tippi hedren, fake birds and all. and just for $40!
so if traumatized like me, by this "great" film, you now have a doll to do reenactments in therapy sessions, or for fun you can give it to a 5 yr old girl after you have her watch the movie by herself.

whichever works.

New in Town.

Well here I am.. So Lately I've been interested in basically finding new interests. No such luck. The only things to keep my attention lately have been good books, and music. I like to find new things to kill my boredom, this [blogging] happens to be one of them.

I'm starting to think that spend to much time in my own mind..
I guess now I'll spend too much time blogging.
Whatever works.
Toodles.