decisions.

so, will i ever make a decision about what i want to do with the rest of my life?
knowing me, most likely not. I refuse to say it's because I have no idea. I have a very good idea, but it's because I want to do so much, in so little time. Besides, it's the rest of MY life.. like times change, as do people, so how can one person know what they want to do for the REST of their life..

However, I can make a decision what I want to do right now..

My thing is this.. Why should I, even try to fool myself into thinking that I can go to school for years and study subjects that I have little to no interest in? Yeah, I'm quite intelligent, and I do think outside the box. I can process things rather quickly. Figure out equations, and resolve problems as a pass time, but why do it to myself?
I wanted to go to art school, since I realized what imagination was.
AND yes! i do know that my father is probably, shit more than likely, going to throw a fit, and my mother disapproves. But what does that mean for me? Happiness is not once size fits all, so why must I conform to what others want?
There's a point in every person's life, where they go F IT!, and they have to do what's best for them, or what they feel is best for that moment.
Right now, I think going away to my dream school, doing what I WANT, is what's best for me.

Pharmacy !? HA! seriously though, how can you know me, and then still suggest for me to go into a medical field. what are you, HIGH?! Yeah, it's in demand, but I don't want a JOB, I want a career, something that I can wake up every day, and go "YES!, I get to go to work today." Granted, I know it's not always going to be like that, but should I not at least a couple of days be? And for me, it's never been about the money, I've never been that type of person.. I appreciate the concern though, for my well being as I become more independent, but I just need to do for self, not for the approval of others.

Funny how, with indecision comes a decision hidden somewhere.

Now, to fork up that tuition, matter of fact not even..
i just need them (the 'rents) to trust me on this one.