slacking.

yeah, i'm slacking.
i'll update when i figure out what i want to say, better yet how to say it.

till then.
toodles bitches.

changessss in the making.

so, i've come to terms with the fact that i'm not happy with myself.
weight wise.
i love everything else, but this "issue" needs to get handled asap! People tell me that I don't need to lose weight, that I'm pretty the way I am, but I'm not happy with myself. Like I just feel so unhealthy now.
It's more than a cosmetic change you know? I have to do it for myself for the long run, and might as well do it while I'm still young.
it's just I need the motivation to work out, like wanting it isn't enough for me.
I guess it's because majority of the time, things are just handed to me, ya know?
ANYWAY.
so, Gaby is my partner in this, thank God, because without her, i would just be sitting on my ass.
I'm working on a workout playlist right now.
I need upbeat songs, that kinda makes me feel sexy, and all about partying.

Yo, i know the end result is going to look SIIICCCCKKKKKK.
so stayyyy tuneddddddddd!

blah.

so i'm back to using my old phone, for about a month.
yeah, my old phone.
great.

until i feel like i'm ready to buy another phone, i guess this is what i'm going to be using.
whatever.
i just need a phone that can make phone calls and text.
and thats what it does.

after my birthday, i'll just buy another one.
BLAH.
spent $450 for a phone that has all types of fucking problems.
just great.

update.

seeing how i never get to write anymore, just updating on what's been going on.

i'm in a really loving mood lately.
loving, and annoyed.

like, i'm just annoyed with the fact of my job, and currently my phone.
phone is being on some extra shit right now.
and I have yet to see my raise at my job.
yeah, job hunt is definitely on. good luck to me on that, right?

anyway, i miss him more than ever.
he makes my day brighter, like this love is crazy.
i don't know mannnnn, i'm scared because i feel myself stuck on him.
its just so good..

anyway, so I've took the steps into cutting people from my life.
well, can't really be called steps, since I've done it in one shot, but whatev.
that's what it is. I look at some people, like it was better when we didn't speak.
sometimes, some people aren't meant to be friends, and thats just what it is.
Like, i'm happy that so and so were in my life for however long, but some things are just better this way.
what can you do?
i can't care anymore.

also, which each person stepping out my life, two come into it, on a brighter note.
and I greatly appreciate that.
I've gotten super close to a couple in the last couple of weeks, and it's all cool beans.
I'm hoping these friendships work, actually really like these people.
Seeing eye to eye, with no misunderstandings is such a good thing.

Uhm, i'm in the works of starting my own business, with a partner!
Yeah, big things are happening, moves are being made, plans being finalized.
I am soooooo with this.
like this is such a good look on both ends, I can't wait till things really move forward.

Not too long ago, I felt like I was lost, and I didn't know where to turn, where to begin, end, whatever. I needed something new, I needed some type of change. I have yet to see that change, or get anything significantly new, but I've decided it's just about time to take matters into my own hands.
Mentally, I do not think I'm the same person. I think quicker, with my thoughts being more detail-orientated. Or try to be at least.
I think my style, should somewhat mirror that in a way.
I don't know how yet, but come next couple of weeks, it's going to be a new thing for me.
it's always good to switch up just a little, and thats what i'm going to do!
in the end, i'll still be me, and that's all that matters.


As for everything else:
I can't believe in less than 2 months, I'm going to be 20. Feels like I'm getting older, but yet I'm still super young at heart.
In less than two months, I will no longer be a teenager.
In less than two months, I'm leaving more than a few things behind.
In less than two months, I wonder who could keep up.

BTW,
my hair has gotten longer!
Four more inches and it'll be touching my butt.
WOOHOO!

so,

i'm in love.
and he completes me in more ways than one.
and yes, I've had my doubts.
and yes, there was a lot of bullshit to go through.

but, at the end of the day, he's the one.
I can't even begin to tell how he makes me feel.
when we speak to eachother, are together, its.. i don't even know the words.

i can't wait for things to fall into place.
i'm happier more than ever, and surprisingly someone else has A LOT to do with it.

forever & always.

the dream.

can i tell you how much i'm in love with this dude right now?
he's just so awesome, his music, his style. JEEBUS!
all weekend i've been just zoning to his two cds, and mixtape joints. like i don't know what it is about him, but I LIKE IT.
i'm really feeling his new album, that comes out march 10. there's more than a couple bangers on that CD. think i might actually have to cop.

myFAVORITE:

KFC's Subliminal Message

Lupe Fiasco x Converse

Lupe was recently at St. Alfred in Chicago where he released his new Converse sneakers and signed a few pairs for his fans.

I know there's a lot of people who DO NOT fuck with this company, but I on the other hand, can live in a pair of Converse. Chuck Taylors are the ONLY sneakers that can be beat up, worn down, LEANING, and still look something MEAN & VICIOUS.
Lupe's releases replicates his style to the tee.

Lupe's 1st (Product) Red Converse

The Converse being released at St. Alfred was..

Having already teamed up with Converse on a previous PRODUCT (RED) effort Lupe has returned in 2009 with another, entitled the 100 Supplementaire. The kicks feature his political opinions with newspaper font plastered throughout the all-white uppers and a symbolic red eyelet.

Lupe's style is impeccable, I am SO with it!

"Leave Chris Brown or Die"

I don't know if this kid is really serious, or what. I just can't help looking at the braces.