because knowing is just half the battle.

you know what i love?
the best thing about myself in my opinion..

the fear i can put in some people, since i don't say much.

it's HILARIOUS.
because i'm about 5'2, and i think i look as innocent as can be.
i'm guessing, i look innocent to only me.

this dude told my friend, not to trust me, cause i ALWAYS look like i have something up my sleeve.
the funny thing about it is, that he's kind of right.

I'm quiet, because I like to observe things. I process them, and then I contemplate.
Sometimes it's easy figuring people out, and with that bit of info I processed, I know their next move & the move after that..
I don't trust many people, hence why I don't have many friends.
I have a good way of reading people, and their motives. I, personally, think that's a fantastic thing, seeing how I really don't get hurt, with such a defense mechanism.
The thing is, what he said kind of bothered me, because he hasn't been the only one who has said that before.
"she's too quiet.."
I don't know, but I hate hearing that.
If i have something to say, please believe, you're going to hear it, but some things are better left unsaid.
I do like the fact that people KNOW that i'm thinking about something, but CAN NOT, not even a little bit, figure it out.
I just don't want people to be nervous about it, like why should they be? Are you hiding something that I shouldn't know about? Like is it THAT serious? Do i make you THAT uncomfortable, because I like to keep my thoughts to myself?
In a way, I think this is why P. and I have such a different relationship, from others I've had. We're both the same way, and we both understand why.
You find out more things about everything, when you just sit back, observe, process, and plot.

See, plotting can mean any number of things, i.e.:

to prepare a list, timetable, or scheme to devise or construct the plot of (a play, novel, etc.). to plan or scheme secretly; form a plot; conspire a secret plan or scheme to accomplish some purpose

lol, thinking about it, it's not so different, but not truly the same.
ANYWAY.
Like not all plotting is bad, it's really about being prepared for the next couple of steps.

I don't know.
I learned from some, that life is like a chess game. You can't only look at your pieces on your side of the board. You have to look at every angle, look at every piece, and think about every possible move that can be made, because that's the only way to win. You have to look at life from every position, play from every side. It's better to know what each man is thinking, even the little niggas like the pawns, than to be taken by surprise by what you didn't, but should have known.

I'm just like figuring it out for the first time writing this..

I think I keep some people around just to see what they're going to do..
why is that?

shit, the weak start riots, while the strong always move quiet.