sad moments.

I'm not even going to lie, what he did put me in a fucked up position.
Like, I never felt like this about any dude, and what he did, it's like he almost fucked that up for both of us.
I gained a friend out of the situation though, and I figured out where I wanted to be.

I almost lost the same friend over the same situation, because I don't know how to let go of it.
I just wish there was some type of understanding, you know?
I never been the type to care about shit, really and truly, but when I do care, I care hard. So when I hurt, I hurt hard. feel me?
I want to let go, and at times I feel like it's possible, I put them in a position where I thought I would be comfortable, but I wasn't.

I want to be able to have both things at once, but I don't even see how it's possible. I'm sitting here holding onto something I want to let go of so badly, cause I know it's going to make me lose two people I care about, but I don't know how..