venting.

Okay, you know what. I'm about to completely honest about how I feel on certain matters.

1. I'm so tired of people saying, "My president is black!!!". Seriously? Dude, I understand every reason to be happy, joyful, proud, etc., at this moment, but can we embrace the other half of him, just for a minute, maybe? President Obama is bi-racial. Last time I checked, his mother was a white woman. I'm not saying no one should be happy about the history made, but he has another part to him, that makes him HIM. feel me?

2. I absolutely hate when people can't be real about their shit. I hate when people try to have different motives from the one they told you about. Like, I don't give a shit what you're doing with your life honestly, but when it involves you talking to MINE, be real about shit.
I don't wanna hear, oh I have to ask him a question.. blah blah blah. All fine and dandy.
Ask the question and move on. It doesn't mean, "HEY! Let me just keep calling dude." Knowing I don't like that shit.
I AM NOT STUPID.
I know every trick up the sleeve thats remotely possible, so get it together.
Point blank and period, people need to be real with themselves and except the fact some shit just ain't going to happen.

3. I'm starting to fucking hate my family. Excluding my mom, dad, brother, sister-in-law, and the kids. Everyone else could seriously go fuck themselves, because it's sad how the family turned into "damn if you do, damn if you don't." After my Grandma's death, it just went down-hill, like everyone turned against each other. I mean seriously speaking, you see the true colors of people when a funeral or a wedding comes around.
Normally, I would let things go, but it's like, THAT side of the family, acts like my mother, brother, and I are just step-children who have no say in any matter. We're just visitors of the family, not really there you know?

4. I hate when I seem like the only one who cares about something in the relationship. WHY are guys like that? I'm not asking for much, seriously speaking. The most you could do is see why I'm upset about something. YOU know why i'm upset, but yet it's like it doesn't even matter. All you do is say "idk why you even get worked up about it." or "it's not even that serious."
wtf? If i'm upset, it's something serious. I want you to be mad with me! Be upset! Say something!
yo, i love being a relationship where arguments never happen, but when it does happen, it's like how the fuck do I deal?
It feels like we're arguing about the same shit, over and over, because we are.
Help me make things better. Yeah there's somethings that can't be helped, but shit, give me a break some time. All i'm asking for is that you feel what i'm feeling. how hard is that?
UGHHHHH man.

I hate when i sit here and think about things, cause then I just find out how much is really, truly bothering me.
I want to leave.
ASAP.